i am devoid of any meaningful, rational thought.
i long for the confusion to be dispelled, the darkness to be illuminated, the uncertainity vanquished. i have wallowed in these self deprecating thoughts for far too long, thus confirming the fact that i have rejected the complete sufficiency of the Lord's redeeming work. i am seemingly engrossed in my past failures, sins and weaknesses. withholding from Christ that which I am most in need of healing from.